If you're grumpy and you know it clap your hands...
So I'll admit it I am a total grouch. I am in a funk. I hate everything, I am angry, I am sad about nothing and everything all at once. The following things are a few things making me this way:
-M and Mme R have been very stand offish since the week away.
-Le Boyfriend is going to Hungary to stay with AB's cousin over Easter
-My friend D is NOT coming for Easter-Therefore I will be alone
-Le Boyfriend does not understand why I'd be upset over the AB's cousin / Hungary situation
-I AM STILL freaking sick and I have had a headache for a week that is getting worse (yes yes I am going to the doctor this time I swear)
-The weather is CRAPPY
The following things are reasons that in spite of all the reasons above I should be happy:
-I get to love le Boyfriend
-I live in FREAKING Paris
I know a shorter list but I think that each of those count for at least four.
On a side note I went to get tested for HIV on Tuesday. I went with a friend before who had been asked by her pervious partner to go (it's a long story) and realized that I had never been tested. I thought that I had no reason to be tested since I am not a promiscuous girl and I am safe, BUT then I started thinking what if one of my exes (some of whom I KNOW to have been unfaithful) had contracted HIV? What if I accidentally passed it on to le Boyfriend? The chances were slim I know but I had to find out. (Because I am neurotic and worried myself into a tizzy.) Anyway so I went got blood taken and got the NEGATIVE results today. So no HIV for me YAY! I have been freaking out about it though and I am REALLY glad that I know for sure, even if I felt like a dirty whore going to the free AIDS clinic. The Doc shook my hand and congratulated me on being negative, which I found funny. The moral of the story is I am glad I got tested just for piece of mind I feel that it was the right thing to do (even if it made me temporarily feel like a dirty whore).
So that is my rant for today. I am also still reeling from the fact that I put up the video blog yesterday, what was I thinking. I promise all of you that I don't usually look quite that haggard!
So hopefully I will soon be out of this Debbie downer funk (that I have been in since Christmas it seems). Wish me luck!
-M and Mme R have been very stand offish since the week away.
-Le Boyfriend is going to Hungary to stay with AB's cousin over Easter
-My friend D is NOT coming for Easter-Therefore I will be alone
-Le Boyfriend does not understand why I'd be upset over the AB's cousin / Hungary situation
-I AM STILL freaking sick and I have had a headache for a week that is getting worse (yes yes I am going to the doctor this time I swear)
-The weather is CRAPPY
The following things are reasons that in spite of all the reasons above I should be happy:
-I get to love le Boyfriend
-I live in FREAKING Paris
I know a shorter list but I think that each of those count for at least four.
On a side note I went to get tested for HIV on Tuesday. I went with a friend before who had been asked by her pervious partner to go (it's a long story) and realized that I had never been tested. I thought that I had no reason to be tested since I am not a promiscuous girl and I am safe, BUT then I started thinking what if one of my exes (some of whom I KNOW to have been unfaithful) had contracted HIV? What if I accidentally passed it on to le Boyfriend? The chances were slim I know but I had to find out. (Because I am neurotic and worried myself into a tizzy.) Anyway so I went got blood taken and got the NEGATIVE results today. So no HIV for me YAY! I have been freaking out about it though and I am REALLY glad that I know for sure, even if I felt like a dirty whore going to the free AIDS clinic. The Doc shook my hand and congratulated me on being negative, which I found funny. The moral of the story is I am glad I got tested just for piece of mind I feel that it was the right thing to do (even if it made me temporarily feel like a dirty whore).
So that is my rant for today. I am also still reeling from the fact that I put up the video blog yesterday, what was I thinking. I promise all of you that I don't usually look quite that haggard!
So hopefully I will soon be out of this Debbie downer funk (that I have been in since Christmas it seems). Wish me luck!
Comments
Hallie :)
Get your ass to the doc, girl!!! If you can go for AIDS testing... you should definitely be able to go for the cold/flu thing you've got.
Congrats on the negative test! I get tested every year... so it's something I look forward to - instead of worrying and dreading about!
(and it's cold and rainy here, too!!)
This whole comment was me sympathizing with you. Haha!
I think it is great you got tested. I recently just got a whole panel done on me because I started to have a freak out moment that maybe I had contracted something years ago and just never knew about it and I would never forgive myself if I gave it to my husband. So to ease my mind since it was keeping me up at night worrying about not knowing, I had my gyno do a complete panel for all STDs and everything came back negative. So I understand the sudden need to know and the relief that your gut feeling of being okay was right.
I see you found Hallie! I just love her!